Transparency

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Transparency is a beautiful word. It appears in strategic plans, in mission statements, in evaluation forms. But in practice? It's often the first thing to disappear when it comes to matters that truly matter. When I was asked to become vice-dean for research, it seemed like a great opportunity. The dean's assistant told me I would receive teaching relief, an attractive allowance, and — the icing on the cake — a sabbatical at the end of my term. I agreed, was elected. What turned out? No sabbatical at all. It had existed only in that one conversation. The teaching relief had to be arranged separately by the incumbent dean, who did so with a cc to the entire dean's office, writing that he was doing this "albeit with considerable reluctance" — as if I had asked him for a personal favour. Meanwhile the incumbent vice-dean, the dean, and the vice-dean for teaching all received teaching relief as a matter of course. The problem was never the teaching relief itself. The...

The accidental academic


The idea of pursuing a PhD — let alone becoming a professor — was once beyond the realm of my imagination. In my environment, university served a single purpose: training for a solid, practical profession. It was the only path I knew.

I followed it faithfully, earning a degree in a health-related field. Yet a sense of unease persisted. What followed was a ten-year odyssey through various specialisations — working with children, stroke patients, adults with intellectual disabilities — each move an attempt to find a niche that suited me. None ever did.

The outcome was predictable: a severe burnout. A decade in the wrong career is a recipe for collapse. 

I never imagined starting a PhD later in life, after a decade in another profession.

Yet, within that breaking point lay an unexpected gift. The catalyst that forced me to abandon the original path entirely and begin constructing another — one that led, improbably, to where I am now.

I decided to study languages, purely out of interest, with no career in mind. To my surprise, I discovered I had a talent for it — especially when it came to the analytical side. Writing my dissertation was not a chore but an adventure, one that culminated in my first academic conference, where my supervisor encouraged me to present my findings. 

Some conferences are supportive spaces for early-career researchers. Others are not. My introduction to academia was of the latter kind. The academics in the room were loud, confrontational, and impatient. During my presentation, I was interrupted twice by an aggressive academic — something that simply isn’t allowed at a conference. At the time, I was simply humiliated. I called my partner immediately afterwards, in tears, to say I was done with academia.

What puzzled me most was what happened next. That same academic sought me out over lunch and even complimented me on my work. I was bewildered. How could someone humiliate a junior researcher in public and then offer praise minutes later? Is this what academic life is like?

Stranger still, a few months later I received a phone call from an eminent professor collaborating with that same individual. They were looking for a research assistant for a new project and considered me an ideal candidate. Would I accept a two-year position?

 

I did. And that’s how I ended up in academia — and, alongside my work as a research assistant, began my own PhD.

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